p://www.imeem.com/jazminesullivan/music/xJj2WgBe/jazmine-sullivan-in-love-with-another-man/">In Love With Another Man - Jazmine Sullivan

I'm really sorry
that I feel how I do
and it's hurting you
like it's hurting you
but I just don't want to...

I know you loved me first
and love me still
and I got love for you too
just that I don't want to
not with you...

He is far from perfect
or even polite most days
I know but he brings me
balance and joy in
one breath...

This has nothing
nothing at all to do
with anything bout you
it's me -
I just don't want to
not with you...

I do appreciate
that you love me too
and want to give me
everything I want
with dude...just that with you
I just don't want to
what can I do?

You don't want me
lying and faking it
for you do you?

I never been a good actress
so I can't make it
seem real when I know the deal
and as it stands right now
how I feel
is well..I love him
so with you
I just don't want to...

I know he's not even mine
and he wastes a lot of my time
but when I'm with him
the peace is sublime so I
can't be what you want
I'm really sorry if that
hurts you
but it gotta count for something
that I just don't want to...

the woman that gets you
will be lucky to
that fact still remains true

p://www.imeem.com/stephaniempls/music/_XOMROc8/joe-if-i-was-your-man-joe/">If I Was Your Man Joe - Joe

"he don't love you anyway
so why is it so hard for you
to just let it go and let me?"

I'm stuck with no good answer
I remember the good times
he over there talkin bout...

"he wasn't gonna ever
be able to take care of you
not like you needed him to
you act like I don't know too?"

Still speechless - sitting
waiting for it to be over
cause there is nothing I'll
be able to say that makes sense...

"don't you still want
what you said you wanted
with him?"

of course I do
it's just that...

"just that what?
just that this stranger
means more to you
than I do?"

it's not like that

*sighs*

"so what's it like?"

he keeps asking me
and asking me
but I don't have an answer
that he's gonna understand...

p://www.imeem.com/jukeboxmusic16/music/lWrDubBq/floetry-feelings/">Feelings - Floetry

p://www.imeem.com/groups/dvWvUf_g/music/ukFmYTEb/aretha-franklin-it-hurts-like-hell/">It Hurts Like Hell - Aretha Franklin

If loyalty were truly a virtue
than it'd serve me better than it do
cause all it does is keep me in hell
with far too many stories to tell
makes tears outnumber laughter
all in a quest for ever after
I've been bent, broken, and left behind
drawn back by the the memories I find
digging thru the boxes of my past
every chapter that of a love that didn't last
devotion short lived in real life
like my time to know the joy of being a wife
still I tried again because I have no fear
deal with alot of emotions that's clear
still I jump in the deep end and swim
even if the waves carry away them
I give more to the thought of it
drowning in my own virtue bit by bit
smiling at memories as if the pains
were just irremoveable stains
they didn't ruin the picture I see
and how much bigger could it be
if forgiveness is in it with hurt
something pure left beneath the dirt?
unable to stop believing in the feeling
so in hell and out I find myself reeling
because loyalty and love for me
are one in the same and run concurrently
endlessly...

p://www.imeem.com/vampire-elli/music/r2tsiaTH/blue-october-hate-me/">Hate Me - Blue October

I get made with myself
even trying to think of
why I should or could
and how long that would last
if all along it was a lie
anyway
so you hate me first
leave me and let me
be broken where you can't see
if i'm to be fixed by
some other hands than
they surely won't come
if yours are still
sitting folded watching
from the corner of my mind
in every dreams scene
your face is all I've seen
and i ain't got me
hating what I think is
was - could be - mighta been
a blessing
so you first
find something
shouldn't be hard
take whatever made you fall out
multiply that by ten
and saturate it with
you ain't never liked female friends
and shake real good
take all that things I meant to say
that you forced to remain
misunderstood
and all that awful silence
and make the anger all present
then let it stay there
in the forefront of your mind
that'll buy me some time
and by then maybe
I'll have gotten away
from you
like you want me to
right?
see cause the thing is
I'ma always stay and
have the fight
get tired and for a round
concede and say fine
your right even if
I don't mean it
cause I meant it
when I said I wouldn't quit
it's just that you didn't
so since this was all your bright idea
and I gotta live with it
how bout you lead by example
and hate me first
I'll watch what you do
and rehearse

p://www.imeem.com/rockmusic15/music/-8fKWBKY/snow-patrol-chasing-cars/">Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol

Even with all the words I know
and all the ways I can lay them
out across a page so they
take shape and show you what I mean
I know sometimes it's still hard
to see what I mean when there's
so many pages to the theory
and constantly additions are
being made and revision to
drafts simultaneously because
I seek to perfect it like a piece
of poetry acted out in real life
until one can't tell the imagery
from the reality but I
don't act that well...I just write
and when I'm not on paper
I can't find the words worse
plus I'm always saying something slick
so it's always a slippery slope
if I have to let go the paper
so I would rather just
lay down and let you listen
to my heart for yourself

I'm at a loss for words...

p://www.imeem.com/people/RgNG6a/music/ZqKiO0Uu/jill-scott-i-keepstill-here/">I Keep/Still Here - Jill Scott

Dear Baby:

it's been a minute
since I did this
cause I been avoiding
talking to you
knowing you can see
how I been makin moves
a lot of shit you'da told me
not to do I did it anyway
knowing what you'd say
cause baby I'm not getting better
not like they said I would
not like they said I could
and all I can figure to do is
keep getting up and doing shit
even when my heart not in it
doing nothing just makes me worse
so is put the mask back on
under the shades and roll
or I stand to fold
I'm finding fewer things
on which to hold
and thank God I know God
or I'da been done by now
but I ain't gonna be able to
face you when I see you
if I don't make up out this
rut somehow
I know...so
I been ya know
trying...
truth be told
the act alone
feels like I'm dying
but I been sayin that I'm healed
and I know that I been lying
even though why they say I should be
makes sense...it don't to me
and I find myself missing the shit
out you cause how I thought
didn't make me crazy
this is crazy...that I gotta talk
to you on pages in letters
you can never write back
when I wish I could talk to you most
need my friend now more than ever
but I know that's no excuse
to not keep working at getting better
but I'm tell you now I don't think
it's gonna work if it means
I gotta act like you didn't matter

later yo...

p://www.imeem.com/chrisettemichele/music/Pnc8_dPo/chrisette-michele-fragile/">Fragile - Chrisette Michele

He sits in wait
for the day that
I get over this love for that dude
and he thinks he can try again
so he texts randomly
saying something along the lines of
"in case nobody told you today -
your amazing"
trying to put smiles on my face
he tries and I know he means well
wants to make me feel like dude do
shook off the shot to his ego
when he got kicked to the curb
figured if dude could appear out of nowhere
than it's likely he'll flee with
the same speed
and now he takes no pride
in saying I told you so
though he could cause
dude gone with the wind
blowing my mind
and left a mess behind
that he is all too willing
to sweep up and clean up
collect the pieces to glue
no matter how long it takes
to make me feel strong again
so he plays it like a friend
and if I answer this phone
he'll hear the loneliness in my voice
and won't care that the longing
isn't for he
he'll still offer me
arms to hold me close
telling from my tone
dude's own haven't reached for me
in a long time and my laugh
told him so when it forced itself
out my mouth at something
I never even let register
cause I'm already feeling dirty
for even talking to him
so he text again
"I know your up...what's wrong?"
I could lie but what for?
so I reply listening to a song
he know enough to ask which one
that's when I decided this
conversation is done
cause I'll say and he'll know
and I'm fragile enough now
that even though I don't want to
I might still go
so I just watch it ring
tears falling as I sing

cause if I answered you'd never tell me no
even if you were just my rebound
you can't help but to be like I was when
I first met dude...and believe this is
true love that you'd found
only that's just how it'll sound...

p://www.imeem.com/indiaarie/music/01_PAb2o/indiaarie-long-goodbye/">Long Goodbye - India.Arie

The end has been hanging in air
the smoke as we went up in flames
burning all hope of tomorrow
and leaving little to no trace
of these days we spent like today
history lost eternally
and I just want to hold on
to the memory...

smooth the singed edges
of the snapshots of us
my words captured in mental pictures
I collected in the diary
of my heart inspired in every moment
spent loving you
the whole journey one of the
best trips I've been on
in my life
and I didn't want it to end...

shaking globes of daydreams
watching the magic rain again
as if it weren't permanently now
laying lifeless at the bottom
of an empty wishing well
with all the pennies I could find
cushioning the fall
of what I thought we'd turn out to be
as it descends from reality...

let me at least not
have to watch you pack the bags
box up and divide our
intellectual property accumulated
in conception of ideas and beliefs
filling every corner of possibility
with the work of our devotion
let them collect dust - leave them
I'll send them back to you
when I'm ready to move on too
but for now just be silent
before I ask you to tell me lies
trying to hold back tears
just leave me...

but let me keep the memory
of when we worked
well together

p://www.imeem.com/keyshiacole/music/RdLBbmjL/keyshia-cole-heaven-sent/">Heaven Sent - Keyshia Cole

I know it seems like
I'm always coming up with something
to want to ask you or tell
when really the seconds
feel like hours when we're silent
and if I can't be where you are
than I want you around somehow
and I'll take what I can get
even if it seems silly
it makes me happy...

not even just the words spoken
I get tingly sometimes from
the thought of what I think
you were thinking when you smiled
or laughed like you do
and in that moment I can see you
and it's almost real
and before I reach to touch you
I come back down
from the high...

doesn't matter if I'm mad
and you've made me sad
still I want you here near
anytime I think your not coming back
be the only time this joy
fades to the black clouds
light only returning when you do
thankful more and more
each time you do
cause when it comes to
me loving something
this way...

it's just you

p://www.imeem.com/popmusic24/music/S8KrI6bm/beyonc-halo/">Halo - Beyoncé

I had come to terms with broken,
made peace with never getting better.
Truth is words never spoken,
evident though in the arranging of letters.

Forming words making line after line,
crafting prayers pleading for healing.
Your face appearing each time,
in love with something living is appealing.

I can still see the God in him,
without having to mourn him in the past tense.
He outshines through me all other men,
though I at times I wallow in his absence.

Unable to feel alone again it seems,
because he stays with me - even in dreams.

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He appeared and was revealed as heaven sent,
though nothing gave it away at first.
I liked how he talked rode to see where it went,
much later noticed he'd quenched the thirst.

Wasn't until I smelled him on my skin,
remembered his lips against mine - I knew.
When I feel his emotions within,
I'm caught and it's nothing I can do.

I'm not psychic but I see something,
out there in the horizon you don't.
A blessing a little faith can bring,
and I haven't stopped believing - I won't.

I know mercy when it stands in front my face,
you need only to help me preserve this space.

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Help me make this into happily ever after,
the final chapter for both of us.
Fill a home with children's laughter,
build forever on a bed of trust.

I'll yield my good intentions your way,
you lay yours inside of my heart.
Promise to always listen to what I say,
and I'll promise to always do my part.

Cause when I pray for a sign,
an idea of which way to go now.
I see your face every time,
there must be something left somehow.

Because every time I ask Him what I'm supposed to do,
the answer I get is keep loving him and I see you.